I'm in a really bizarre state of mind. Im fighting the bad stuff, Im winning and probably will win this battle.

I miss my friend though, a lot. Probably a lot more than I should. I dont know if he misses our time together or not. I dont know if hes being honest or not. Maybe he really is stuck at work or maybe he's pulling away cause the feeling we get when we connect is unbelievably amazing. I really miss him.

I wish I could find someone like him, just like him, someone with whom Id feel at home.

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I'm pulling away as well.. I dont wanna take his energy, I dont wanna take up his time. I feel guilty for needing more. So it goes when you pick to give in to the one person you shouldnt. It never ends up well.