how can i be so damn stupid?? why do i do things without thinking, we were having great day You were just leaving and i ruined it again again you dont ruin things when there's no time to fix em you dont just ruin things and thats it end of story. how did i end up with corner and grounding? childish behaviour, thats answer and im not a child anymore i know what i have to do and my only chore is making sure i do as You say but today it just happened i was the bratty girl we were talking about earlier only that not cute anymore just a stupid little brat and yes i never talk bout myself refering as brat but this one is deserved. was way easier saying yes Sir than what i did but well as You said ill learn. I thank You for picking up but didnt deserve and even if probably would have been way upset for some time i would have understood it eventually as its not hard to say You were right, as always. In the end when you said that You were "maybe" going to be on tomorrow well that was it, i had hard time seeing You leave for work on Yr day off and rememring Youd said You were gonna be on tomorrow i just went crazy, thats not an excuse for my behaviour though and You had a good point and made me realise how it feels on the other side but it hurt and i couldnt control it and lost it. I know i didnt have permission to call and will remind You tomorrow about it but just needed to because as soon as you left i knew i was wrong and was so sorry still am and needed to hear You and tell You im sorry i was stupid and You were great as always, reminding me how much You care about me and at the same i was only feeling worse cause i hurt You and made You mad over somthing stupid and You know me Sir, my head is my blessing and my curse at the same time. I'm just so sorry amd wish there was a way to make up for that, of course ill do my corner time and il study and i logged after You did but guess ill talk to You tomorrow about it, if there would have taken everything You thought was proper but im not and in a way its worse (well in almost every way) ucz have that guilt that will remain til You say You forgive me and that wont happen til tomorrow when I see You again.. but well part of the penance, im the only responsible for this and hopefully will hellp me be better even if it feels awful at the moment...