ok You just left for work and im already missing You, i wish things were easier for both of Us but it's just a wish, i cannot come there without my parents permission and to get that it's gonna take a while and a good good reason to go on my own and to texas. You say we'll find a way and i really hope we do cause that's one of things that keep me going, knowing i will see You in hal approx. I do not want to pressure You with this, not at all my intention just things are so complicated and why do they have to be like that but hey maybe that. the complicated surrounding is what makes what we have even more beautiful than it already is, yes, maybe its like that. You dont have a clue how badly i wish i had You here for a day @ least, not more than that, just a day
but i even if sound childish and whatever saying all of this i do understand circumstances and how they make thing bit difficult @ the moment but well.... this was more like venting than actually looking for sth on Yr part, more like trying to get a magic solution from somewhere and its not appearing, will have to get one of those magicians hats lol U cant say i dont have humour :P

Enough, i know that if we want it to happen it will happen, after all we've been through lots and always got over it 4mths ago we werent even together 6 mths ago we didnt even met and here we are, loving each other as the first day and sharing everything (although i know U keep things to Yourself but really hope You get over that but its really ok for now i neednt push You it'll get better without You realising)
I really love You and think i proved it, i ve done things for You that i wouldnt have done for anyone else, You made me grow and yes i do realise ive grown more in 3 mths than in all last year. Never stop loving me, You know id do anything in my hands to please You and make You feel good, id do anything to make You happy but if You ever ever feel sth is not working id rather hear it from You than realising when it's too late (ok now i continue after 5 hrs from original post and talking to You on the phone lol)was just in sad mood apparently not readin it again cause am happy now n guess its depressin so id tell You to skip it but If You readin here is cuz already read above so too late lol

well to sum up, love You, would love to go there and see or You coming here and see me :D and im glad we're together and we get along so well and love each other sooo much and glad You dont get tired of me following You evrywhere lol cuz i call You work now lol and hope You getting what You expected from me and if You are not just tell and ill try to improve whatever needs to be changed

oh one more thing, even if i never liked my body (well i did when played volleyball but that much =P )the thing that made it worse was well not thing but person, was ss, yeah i know, didnt wanna tell You cuz i know You and yes i realised, finally that he wasnt real Dommaybe just a wannabe so i finally realised and felt silly but well was my 1st approach to this and went from a wannabe to You lol i never get sth in the middle He made me feel even worse my body image with some comments, figured i never sent him more than one pic never even mentioned about cam so yeah was big step for me but something i wanted to do for You and was thinking taht maybe thats reason why i dont have much trouble about it (besides my butt lol well Yr butt lol) just consider that we only had cam for less than a week and we already played so thats a lot for me and You know me and know its true

well im actually going bed after studying forbit and a little headache (it's not a real day without a headache :P) LOVE YOU BUNCHES AND MISS YOU THE MINUTE YOU'RE NOT AROUND BUT THAT TIME APART FROM YOU as ive said before MAKES ME VALUE MORE WHAT WE HAEV AND THE TIME WE SPEND TOGETHER, LOVE YOU MASTER