shoot shoot shoot thats all i can say, im betetr than before but now dying to log or talk to You adn i cant :(( or just sending You an offline cuz U know im always thinkin sutff and i just finished dinner and while having it remembered one thing i wanted to tell You so thought ok now when im done here will send Him an offline but i cant :(( and its my fault and still have to do my corner ut good thing is studied so guess it's working well You already knew was gonan work and i knew it too but You this punishment is just soooooooo bad to me. and i havent asked bout emails so playing safe for now.

well couple things i forgot in last post, when You said dont cry i wasnt crying i mean not crying for punishment but cause realised i acted in a stupid and childish way and hurt You meanwhile, punishment is just that, a bad time, but the other feeling, knowing Your mad or disappointed or hurt is way worse than any punishment You can give me Sir. Another thing from today's conversation.. as You know i dont have sounds enabled and there were couple times i wasnt looking at screen but i wanted to make this clear, only reason i wasnt looking is cause i feel same as if it was Yr eyes im looking into and i felt same as the other time for a while, i just couldnt look at You at all and its awful cause thought maybe You took it wrongly and there was one time when you got bit mad cause iw asnt looking well... i wasnt actually reading nor looking at screen so didnt know You wanted me to look at You but still had hard time facing the cam and then You asked me get my hair out of the way and that left me like helpless, no protection just had to face You and couldnt look at You so either looked down or to my left but please dont take it wrongly wasnt lack of respect Sir just same feling as the other time.

ok this is all for now and as i cant write offlines this is my way out, love You lots and im really sorry for today and You're so like me, You cant imagine how much.. I do same, say it's ok when it's not but wlel guess You know that. Love You and know You love me and dont say sorry as You did today because You didnt do anything wrong, i did.. well love You and miss You and im really sorry Master, really really and if today's call made You feel unconfy wasnt purpose at all.. i was just a desperate who realised of her boo boo and wanted to apollogise to mae things lil better before You left for work...