THIS IS OLD POST I DELETED SOME TIME AGO AND YOU ALREADY READ IT.. JUST REPOSTING IT

well im not sure if this is gonna come out the way i mean it, am having one of those weekends when not being with You is devastating... Ill be ok by monday or whenever get to talk to You for more than one hour with this am no blaming You at all about schedule or anything ok? just stating my (edit: im lil better just finished dinner)feelings today. It's like got so complicated this weekend i mean everything was "planned" and nth the way i wanted itactually its not big deal and ive been thinking and its kindda my fault and at the same time i cant help it, i know ill be ok again when i get to see You but as i said im just having one of those weekends. Yesterday was crappy day, i got Yr msg while still at school but as cell was set in vibe i nvr realised til i had to go back class and then tried calling You couple times during day and well didnt get to You for x reason, then at night i left for dinenr and when came back You werent on i thought well booted, then thought oh that darn cable again and then i called You even without permission i know and noone picked up so thought well then must be work again so thought well ill wait for You, know YOu'll be back so i waited for a while but got too late and as id decided to wait for You while watching tv i was fallin asleep so thought well ill keep cell next to me so will feel it when You get back on and msg me and i woke up every half hour til 1 and then put cell on desk so didnt feel it at all when You sent msg and today when woke up and saw it, well was more like morning around 530 i checked mob and there was msg You sent and checked yahoo and not one msg sayin what happened n well You know me and how i can get and thought well ill work later even if wasnt sure if You were gonan be there , in that casinoso i called later and when got to talk to You was still sad that we lost last nite cuz that was what kept me going thru day so talked to You and was ok ya said leavin work in a while and i was happy but knowing that while could be 3 hrs or whole day same as when You say gotta run worksth came up brb, i mean when You say that i know YOu wont be back so prepare myself for that (ok must sound relaly crazy by now but ill be ok really lol) but today been waiting and then You PMed me from work and said well fixing to go home have to finish report and that was like 6 or 7 not sure n i thoguht ok well He'll prob b back on around 9 930 but no, was wrong again and im this stupid mood depressing one You know and waiting or You as always and know will be great when i get to see You just dont feel like it at the moment.. Love You lots and think im giving You an idea of how important You re to me with this post, maybe its a mistake maybe its too much and dont wanna upset You or confuse You just needed to get it out You know well enough rambling... just remember i love You and You mean the whole world to me but at the same time and know its not related to this, i need You to be honest with me, need to be sure You telling em everything need to be sure that if You find someone special there You'll let me know and hurts just writing bout it hurts but thats how id like it to be.. ok definitely feel better that got this out of me, sorry if make You upset Master, is under no means my intention but wouldnt be fair if You keep asking if im ok and i say yes even if im not.. which was what happened today.. love You and need You but as You coulndt tell by this..