ended up way better than she thought
smiles big... how can a horrible day end up so well...anyways im glad it did.. lots of issues still on this girl's mind.. and they keep appearing... some days she's strong enough to deal with them some others she's just not and looking for help isn't what she does best so that might complicate things a lil more if possible.. she's having trouble wif trust .. not with Eeveryone but more than she would like and that only makes things more difficult for her.. thinks she's getting paranoid.. but living a lie for 7 months woudl make most ppl paranoid at some point so no that worried about that... she found out she's being oversensitive as well.. if she notices a slight change in how a x person treats her well thats like the end of the world .. lol... tis not supposed to be like that but it is for now.. some ppl just dont realise the imporatnce of a pm a hug or stuff.. maybe cause most of them when they actually hug smile or frown dont do it... just fake it.. as everything else.. not this girls case.. she actually laffs.. frowns.. pouts .. got witnesses to prove it.. giggles..
well anyways.. went back to my old room .. and felt comfortable again for 2nd time in two days.. unbelievable ctually... went back to my new room and felt comfy there as well... smiles... was good .. shame everything happened at nite so had to endure a tuff day but well i like to believe it all happens for a reason.. was good going back to old room and see ppl caring for me.. ppl i care for even if not Ffriends... twas nice seeing that what she did during 7 mths was actually worth it in room... wasnt much actually .. was just her in there... maybe a more quiet version.. but still her.. sometimes ppl need to know others care about them.. and need proof of that.. knowing is not enuff soometimes...
this is girl is more than happy at this moment.. she will go bed with a big smile and knowing if she managed to help someone.. smiles.. and make someone happy was not a wasted day after all...
1 Comments:
posted by ~*~angelfire~*~ at 6:21 AM
thank you for suggesting your blog from your profile. Self discovery can be both awe inspiring and devistating, your travelling that path is painful as all will one day be there and pleasant, as your, thoughtful insights are like rays of sunlight through the clouds.
again, thank you for sharing, good luck, and it was a good day...