3.13 PM here... im such crappy mood for a change lol kindda bitchy mood and You in bed.. not feeling well.. even if would like to say too many late nights so would feel better i cant cuz might not be reason.. i miss our talks, not superficial ones, not ones saying love you all the time as yesterday (not that i dont like them) just miss some quality time you know. friday was clear example of what i dont like but could have been easily changed if You said gimme couple hours need 2 fix some stuff with friends in room and im not gonna lie and say wouldnt have been mad 4 a bit but wouldnt have been more than 10 mins n 100% sure would have been all gone when You were back.. but You didnt and well we know rest, apollogised so guess its ok. then sat our day alone not much different than any other had you 4 around 4 hrs which is alot actually but i dont know just felt like 20 mins then sun well was a surprise didnt expect you on yesterday so was happy when got to see You, ya were in room so after bit thought if wanted 2 b with you i had 2 go in and besides mbh was there n hes funny then when got there had great time, was pretty music but you werent there either.... so i stayed talkin 2 myself cuz every time i wrote sth ya just werent watchin or i dont know then had nice time with meg she's nice but still you werent there n only wrote sth every once in a while and nvr when i said sth so thought well maybe he doesnt see me here and was gonna ask but thought better not as dont wanna be annoyin well was gettin late meg left, star was with L Thunderheart MBH was wif heaven all cuddly was cute seein em n whipz was dancin disco lol but again You not there n i was gettin tired so (as just told meg) in order not to end up as fri decided was better to go bed so i asked ya in room U said ok wait 4 me be with you in a sec well was longest sec like 10 mins when u asked almost ready n i said all ready just waitin 4 u n nother 10 mins makin a total of 20 mins when all i needed is you to tell me g nite and wouldnt have taked more than 5 mins and you would have been able 2 gt back to room or pms or whatever you were doing.. so left you msg n left. dont know how long you stayed up n dont care actually but now today had ya 4 one hour you got headache no way gonna keep you here if feeling bad and havin nap you asked me to wake you, cant do as dont wanna bother you want to see cam i say not workin when actually it is workin but guess you know that, you workin at nite hopefully feel better by then i dont know just feelin weird been like this all w/end since fri. hmm dont get me worng i mean today's events didnt make anything worse or better just decided 2 take it out cuz was gonan get bad if kept it for me

ok wanna make some points clear after that rambling...
i dont have trouble with you going in room in fact i enojy most of the times BUT i stop enjoying it when i get no attention at all, maybe sth i need to work on and i will if have to but thats how i feel atthe moemnt

i dont have toruble with you helping others ok? you know i try 2 help if i can just its not ok when takes all of our time without you letting me know so i can go if i like

you know why been feeling like this.. i got this thought that i might be not interesting enough to keep You yep silly i know but my thought but have the right to think that way and this w/end even if you fulfiled yr promise of stayin with me all sat wasnt enuff .. maybe i dont know i got boring or just dont know what to do or i dont know tahts y havent been wanting to play, would have if you asked me to but just wasnt in the mood to do it and even if hurt saying no and not being able to xplain it to you that was reason

i expected at least an aswer on my pro/con list ya know just came to my mind, took me a lot to do it n actually showin it to you but thought taht might help you get to me more easily.. was goona bring it up today but will have 2 wait til tomorrow

expected you to put me to bed yesterday Master.. if You were in room i dont care , really, juat would have taken an afk 2 put me to bed didnt even have 2 xplain why, if ya were in pms still trying 2 get Irish job well... same applies. With this im not tryin 2 say im not importatnt to you or i dont understand you help ppl and makes you feel good just ya know 4 a bit makes me feel like i dont know one word 2 xpress it maybe mistreated ir i dont know you knew iw as gonan wait 4 u no matter what on fri and same yest b4 puttin me2 bed n thing is the most i waited the worse i got

know im forgettin sth n prob this post didnt come out as i wanted it so might upset you as last one just if i stop n try 2 write in coherent way wont let everything out and we dont want that

i love You ok? bunches just feel a little bad hmmm maybe disappointed as someone suggested me but i dont know..

love you and im totally Yours forever til You get tired/bored of me Master..