she's glad she got back to write here.... yesterday was an exhausting day.. giggles.. spent whole morning out.. then as none of us wanted back home we went to town.. stayed in mc donalds for like 3 hours.... busy day .. giggles.. worst part is we did have lots of things to do... but a girl does not find home atractive anymore.. there's noone waiting for her there.. only trouble.. some drama.. but well she has to go back eventually .. shes grateful for her friends... they are not many but the ones she has are most wonderful.. they've helped her lots during all these hard moments.. if they could only know whole story.. well one of them does.. but its not same.. but they always there for this girl.. no matter what and she's there for them as well... sometimes a girl just needs some time out with her friends to chill or just to have a great time and forget about everything that saddens her...

Something keeps coming to her mind.. she used to have a blog not ss long ago and checked it the other day... she couldnt read it completely but there was something that she cant get out of her mind.. she once told Him how easy it was for her to give advice... with friends of course... but how she could never have some of that advice back or follow her own advice.. and that that was the story of her life... it was true... she always knows whats good and whats wrong... still she doesnt choose the good every time she can.. now if someone came to her for advice she encourages that person to do the right thing.. and she succeeds some times... not all but enough to make her feel good every once in a while now... why cant she follow her own advice? or her instinct? still an unanswered question..

ok thinks she really could use some more sleep now.. or else da rambling will go on forever.. she needs to finish some ideas here but will do so later..