who has the control?

@ times i dont know who really has the control here... see girl's father... geez he has little or non existant control over her.. again her mom has way toomuch control at times... and her mom has same control over girl's father as well.. lol she'd make one hell of a Domme @ times lol.. poor boy if she ever had one. lol.. maybe thats reason why a girl struggles at times submitting.. especially lately.. she's kept that control in order to protect herself and now finding it hard to give it up.. at the same she's scared Master won't up with it or get tired of it so she just tries to give in when He's around but He's not around that fear she once had is back... she might not be slave .. at all.. One tried to make that thought go away,,, He succeeded but now it's back and really dont know what to do with it..

Also .. it's all so new.. and finding it so hard to say what she's thinking.. absolutely hates Master leaving and the not knowing when or if He's gonan be back makes it all worse.. and feels lonely when she shouldnt cause she knows He will be back just at that moment it feels so bad.. and again darent bring it up... for different reasons.. anyway when He's back is like she cant be mead or anything cause He was gone.. and then she forgets about it but He goes again.. it's same .. over and over again.. and just dont know for how long she'll be able to be like this.. doesnt wanna sound like .. a whiny slave or anything but.. she's missing the communication and she knows it's up to her to change that but... dont know... all this insecurity feelings she had.. well those are back and... making it all so difficult... girl dont know what to do... or how to do it..