well..

Ill be as honest as possible in this post.. I owe it to myself..
I feel as Ive lost the one thing that really really made me happy but at the same time i feel that there's nothing that i could have done so yes i feel bad but im sort of at peace with myself. Let me focus on that sort of part.. For the last couple of months Ive been working really hard on bettering myself..

It's a rough night, I think one post, even if complete will do it better than i would so here's the link if you want to check it out... and it will certainly be of use to me in the future..