Days 10 - 15

wow its been 5 days since i last updated this, so many things have changed and ive changed so much in these past few days. For some reason Im very calmed but after sunday im not only calmed but also exhausted, it seems like something is taking a lot of energy out of me and im really tired, i feel totally restless and stressed over the exam i have on monday. I havent advanced one bit in three days and even if i still have time i would have liked to get to an xam somehow relaxed but apparently that word isnt in my brains vocabulary lol

what havent i been doing?

1. situps (did 105 while watchin america's next top model.. no further comments needed about this.. im such a girl at times.. i have like 140 to go lol)
   
2. have a decent bedtime or respect 'bedtime' .. im getting a tad better about being online til a certain hour but it aint easy. Take now for example, im cheering up a friend from school who just failed a final which keeps him stuck in 1st year even though he passed all 2nd year (til he passes all 1st year's finals he isnt able to take 2nd year's ones), alright and now hes trying to make me feel sorry for him which wont happen for im not asking anyone for pity and i wont give it to anyone (wow i sound like a b**** and i dont care lol mainly cause i dont mean it that way.. geez im crazy and talking to myself again)
3. study.. only read about 5 pages in 3 days.. im gonna read some when im done writing this but tomorrow is gonna be crucial since we're hosting a party on saturday (mom's bday) and we'll be busy from 8 onwards (until 3 or so.. lol i cant go to bed early anymore like i used when younger lol... well maybe i can we'll see)
4. keep up my diet.. i was doing sooooooo well and now i screwed up again, im eating so much and im so damn anxious its annoying but i reached where i dont care anymore, after my exam ill worry about that
5. thats about it i think lol

Anyway, thats all i need to work starting tonight and til next monday (part of them) and til i go on vacation on the 15th next month..
I havent been lonely in days til today.. i miss some stuff but we'll see how that other thing goes

Til tomorrow hopefully...