nothing out of the ordinary

I honestly dont know how much is it gonna take til things go bad... it seems like everything we had its simply or gone or just someone managed to ruin it somehow... maybe it was me but it wasnt all i know is im stuck... and im not only walking on thin ice but im also worried because i really dont know whats going on... you know that feeling of losing control.. but completely.. like the little control you did have is now gone.. i dont know maybe its just me maybe im just looking for trouble where isnt any but all this seems so familiar.. and it sucks.. and i dont know..its all like this.. we'll see