wtf is wrong with this fucking world

okay so lets start at the beginning... or well ill try to...or maybe i should start by saying how stupid i am for trusting people i know i cant trust because ive been there already... been there done that kinda thing if you know what i mean. Thing is one would expect to actually learn from mistakes but we can all see that not my fucking case. So one wonders am i really that stupid or am i just too human for this earth? It's often said that the human being is the only person able to trip over the same rock twice.. in my case its twice, thrice or more, maybe its my masochist streak taking over or plain stupidity that i cant get rid of. Anyhowshit happened altogether this time, you know when you dont think things cant get any worse well trust me they can.. and i always say it actually, always said it to a friend of mine who was always depressed and whining, 'things can always be worse' and believe it or not we've both been down that path before, she needs a shrink since her mother is pretty insane.. she really is but im not focusing on her tonight. Im seriously considering leaving chat or yahoo at least for a while, I know i always say it but this time i think i reached my limit. Im done feeling bad when something happens.. or done with start shaking every time someone loses it in a room. Its just not right and it really gets to me in a way it shouldnt and it brings me down. After all the work me and others put into bringing me up again i dont think this chat is worth it.

well dam i lost all my inspiration... or more like vented somewhere else,,,,, but i know ill be back tomorrow after spending some time alone since that alwaysssssssss has me thinking for some odd reason *chuckles* maybe it helps since i dont think enough as of late.. or maybe i do.. but overthink things which oculd be bad on its own i think lol i think.

Anyways... that's all folks (always think of porky.. think again.. *rolls my eyes*)