Lyrics and thoughts

Well since it feels as I cant get anything right as of late, writing wise I figured Id try with some lyrics here.. and see if it works..

Michelle Branch - Goodbye to You (For one this song has a very especial meaning to me, it used to make me cry so badly, just weep for hours til I got over it, see I relate myself to lyrics and stuff like that, what I listen to varies with my mood most of the time, yes Im one of those people who if sad will just listen to sad songs, it's kinda cathartic I think, well it is to me at least. This time is a bit different though. It's the first week in over a month that I feel sad and I just found out why.. grinz... my period is about to start within a week.. I definitely have to start writing those things down, damn thats why Im so so sad. It's not that Im not sad anymore now just that knowing what time of the month is I can start thinking more clearly and it's probably all in my head anyways, not that I didnt think of that but it all seems so much worse when Im like this. Anyway, I think Ill get this finished for once for feelings are still there .. they are eased now though but as all knowledge is worth having and this might be useful to me.. here it goes)

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by

(edit 11.42 pm this is why i should always finish this when i feel like writing cause then i lose track of what I was bout to say)

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star


next post on friends and 2 other things that ill expand laters lol so i dont forget (mnpo)