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This place was once my safe haven.. where i would share everything.. not only with myself (if that makes sense) but also with my former Master who happened to be my best friend for a good while.. and was the person who kept me going and made me grow more than i thought possible in so little time.. the man i loved with all my being which id come to hate in the same amount.. but whom i dont hate anymore but hold him in that special place in my heart.. thanks for making me a better person.. for taking care of me and giving me more than i thought i deserved.. i will love you forever.. not as a lover but i will love you for all you gave me..

Times are different now... I'm with someone else.. i wonder at times if he really loves me as he claims to.. he says he does.. his word is all i have.. his words and some memories of our time together.. not all happy but then again if they all were it wouldnt be real.. it wouldnt be life.. I do miss some things.. i miss the romantic part of him.. miss the dominant part in him which lead me to him over half a year ago.. time does fly after all.. Ups and downs but we're still together.. who would have thought so...

Today i panicked.. today i was ready to give up.. to leave.. again.. yet for the first time with you.. i couldnt do it but i was close.. that sole thought scares me more than i thought it would.. i dont wanna leave.. dont let me leave.. i dont wanna leave.. promise me you wont let me and that we'll be together forever.. then i shall be yours.. but promise me im your only one and that noone will come in our way.. noone... can you promise me that?